the rain is very happy

The rain was so heavy this afternoon. My wife, a simple woman who married 3 years ago seemed cool to his penchant for crossword puzzles. Ah, how simple it all at face always occurred guilt? Why can not I give all my love for him? The rain was a bitch. Each point of water is always scraping her longing. My wife? No, Neva. The woman who for ten years faithfully filled one corner of my heart. The woman who always made me feel guilty to my wife.

My first introductions to happen ten years ago. At that time I have to follow the CCN of the most famous universities in Yogyakarta. The first time know, I do not care because I just split up from my boyfriend. Just imagine 4 years I went out and he just dumped me. Neva was of medium, short hair ala Demi Moore, looking pretty sweet. But the most interesting is his eyes warm, sincere, friendly and always laughing. Orientation week I still do not really care often disturbed by the force of spontaneous laughter. We happened to a team. "Mas .. like some coffee?" greeting my wife interrupted my musings know about Neva. I nodded quickly. For some reason I'm upset because my thoughts stopped.

"Oh ... well yes Yok village ... ... ... Uih country like gods," Neva spontaneously commented when we arrived at the village located on the slope of Merbabu. Hm .. also. Our team place to live is an empty house on the edge of the rubber forests. Each morning dew come down and dance on the sidelines of the rubber forests where sunlight gently pushed in between. And every morning person, I'm always surprised smile as he sipped his coffee Neva (either what time he woke up in the morning).
"Morning .. Yok! Uh ... was good ..." and Tell him about the activities of his morning walk.


Whether, ultimately every morning we were always talking about corpulent it over coffee. I realize this woman next to him as well as independent remarkable intelligence. He could tell from Nitsche, stock prices, Picasso, Pink Flyoid to poverty. Incredible once he was awarded a scholarship exchange student, diligent play the piano and working part time (although she comes from a family that was enough). I'm more like being at his side.

In my eyes wit makes him so interesting, pretty and sexy. Until one night when we talked on the porch alone he surprised me with the statement, "Yok ... I was already not a virgin." I was so surprised, for someone like me who taught from childhood that a woman must hide her emotions, statements like this that shook my emotions
"Oh ... God ... this woman who I was looking for ..." I cried silently. How honest he was.

He talked about his love so much on his girlfriend, her grief because his girlfriend had never asked her to be his wife even though they have been dating almost 6 years. Without know for sure, I've fallen in love with him and a sad I did not dare express it. I just enjoy the days of my service learning. We played water in the river, the streets. Every girlfriend came, punched jealousy and pain that I was even a pompous style often encouraged him to the station to go home to see his girlfriend. Every time after the home, in the style of humor he told me about with her boyfriend. Neva ... you know I love you?
Until one day, she and I went to my hometown of Solo to seek sponsorship for cheaper markets which we will hold. Our imperceptibly late.
"Nev ... we are staying at my mother's house yuk?"
Really! At that time I did not have any thoughts. And as I knew, loved my family Even my mother says, "He's just another yes Rini? Her child friendly and nice". Ah .. how much I want to say, "She's the woman I wanted to be my wife, mother".
"Yok ... I slept where?" Neva asked.
". It's in the front room." My mother was so eager to organize my room.
"Well ... Iyok sleeping where?"
"Let me sleep on the sofa in the living room".

My house is a bit strange, almost the entire room was in the back, only my room is located on the front.
That night I could not sleep restless. For some reason I so miss the Neva. Crazy! And I've been with him all day. As there are moves I went to my room where Neva wearing nightgowns to bed with my mother!. Sleep seems so peaceful. Yes ... God did I realize how much I loved him. Without felt I stroked her cheek gently. He squirmed. Oh .. really sexy. Suddenly without being able to kissed her lips with a gentleness that never gave a former girlfriend. Neva opened his eyes, and I realized how beautiful eyes. "Yok!" But he did not do anything. Back lips, And he greeted warmly kissing. His tongue was so wonderful to play on my tongue. Without felt something hard poking through my pants. I kiss with a warm neck, she amused. kissing with a gentle kiss on my neck, down to my chest. Then with a movement so soft, taken off. Get every damned kiss with a kiss on his chest. Yes ... forgiveness ... he was not wearing a bra. Felt her nipples harden and her chest was so tight. My hand went from the bottom. Ugh ... his chest was so full. so fascinating. He was so touch. Suddenly he, "Don ... ah ...". What a shock, I pulled off. There is pain in my chest rose. He called his girlfriend's name! Neva was realized.

"Yok ... sorry ..." my t-shirt taken soon.
"Go ... sorry ... I ... I ... miss the Don". And he head. Perhaps the frankness crazy because it aroused my passion. Whether I was so sure of my filling him, my love and I want him to have me. I'll give him. Yes ... I'm still a virgin! Although I seriously dating for 4 years with Rini, I was a man who so appreciate virginity. In fact, I've vowed only to my wife will give. As there are supernatural forces suddenly I asked.
"Nev ... would you take?"
"But ... Yok?"
"I do not care Nev ... I love you ... I want you to take it ... I want you to be my wife" as he grasp his hand. There Beads of water flowing from his eyes round. Neva just silent, and gently took my hand and took it to his chest.
"You're so sincere ... Yok ...". Is that sentence out of his mouth. Then he kissed my lips, first gently once but more and more wild, laid me on the bed. His tongue licked my ear, down .. ... into my hands ... then down to my toes .. to .. top ... thigh ... oh dear! I've never done this. Rini I used to do only limited to 'passport photo', and even then with the used clothes. Suddenly a small bite me jerk, with his teeth, the opening of my shorts and underwear. Yes .. I was stark naked in front of him. Then with a gentle motion he opened, then her panties. I'm still in a supine position.
Between the confusion and turmoil extraordinary. With a sweet smile, sticks out her tongue Neva toward. Played her tongue at the base of my manhood. Aaggh ... oh my God ... Heaven Is this you? I was speechless when his mouth apa2 suck my manhood as he occasionally punctuated by alternating breasts .. I almost can not take the lava in the manhood. But when I almost, his hands gently massaged the bridge of my manhood. Miraculously, the lava would not be out but still volatile.

So ... it is done repeatedly. Until he said ... "Yok ... I want to give a gift that you can not forget". He then sat on top of me, just above my manhood.
She took my manhood continues to move so soft inclusion into kewanitaanya. Ugh ... ah .. moaning so fascinating. And I holding round ass. But soon he said "Shhh ... I will make you happy Yok!". Continue with the pumping motion and play, I felt all the blood flowing downward.

Sweat entire body. I felt him kissing pumping. Then dicengeramnaya me tightly. Aggh .. agh ... whole muscle stretch. Her nipples stood erect and into my mouth. Then with the wildness that had been imagined previously nipple as he returned "Ah ... hold on .. .. Yok ... do not stop" the attack wild. "Again ... again ... .. Yok is the third time ... let's Yok ..." And can I hold without spraying. Neva immediately pulled out. Then it fluid lava. Why he did not contempt? With a sweet smile as if he could read my mind. "No Yok ... I want to make you happy". Oh God, I'm very touched to hear it. To me he has become my wife. That night, we made love three times and three of the Neva 'me'. Hm ... I promise, one day I'll give 'something' that was great ...
"Mas ... it's cold coffee. Why not drink?" Ah ... once again greeting my wife interrupts my thoughts. Neva ... where are you now (my wife)?
In the quiet that comes
My confidence is fragile
own ...
You're not out promise
In the diffuse light blur
And the sound of dragging slippers
Who continue to follow me
my journey ... "

Rubber forest that was the same. The smell of wet earth, the sap of rubber, even a hut where the rubber harvesters still on edge. Neni wife was occasionally pursed his grip around my waist. The sky was dark, cloudy dancing with casually and bring the cold air hit our way to the village headman's house where I had my bike with corruption and age appears broken up a hilly street. Well, hopefully we will not attend the funeral of late mayor of kindness.
"Why do battered motor mas ... this just is not for sale. Sell Chinese motorcycles are also okay." my wife complained.
And as usual I just do not quiet know how to explain the real reason.
"Ha .. ha .. Yok ... it's not a motor bike Onthel" Neva laughter when my bike stalled on the road near the woods when it was rubber. ", why do you want me?" I pretended I was angry. Hear my voice who looks upset. Neva's round eyes immediately widened with the funny.
"Ah .. you're not cool. Ric wrote angrily" He turns scowled and clenched his mouth. Lines hardened face, forehead Why? Ouch? I swear, I did not mean to offend him. I'm desperate
"... Somebody Ngg. Nev ... I ... I ... sorry ... this ... ngg" I can not continue because it did not know what to do. It's why I was so afraid to make him angry, afraid he will not anymore with me. As I wrestled with, suddenly landed a kiss on the cheek "Mmuah!" Neva kissed chuckled amused at having. Between relieved, surprised, pleased and embarrassed. Moreover some of the rubber fence passed us seemed embarrassed and ashamed to see not get enough.

"Nev .. shh .. ntar seen people" "Ha .. ha ...! Ha .. ha ... gotcha! Scared me angry yes? He .. he ..." He was laughing with amusement. So cute, want to hug it tightly. Immediately wipe wiped his hair long and began to tangle with great love.
"Unfortunately yes?" asked spoiled (new kusadar, he did not reveal this indulgence to anyone as long as we are learning. Is this how she does Don? Damn! soon get out of this bad feeling). I looked in the eyes funny. I know for sure, he can read what a beautiful engraved in my heart.
Rain spilled without again. The wind becomes faster and faster as if mocking my bike is getting dragged.
"Nen .. we were sheltering in the hut alone bike soon to loom on the edge of the woods. Dried coconut leaves are torn into the roof visible in some parts. But it was still okay in the right corner there was a dry place.
Before we sat down on a bamboo bench was looking worn and a lot of the rest of the dry trees, clean up the bench with my hands, and with a haste that resulted in a small nail sticking my index finger cut. Fresh blood flow immediately.
"Oouch!"
"Yok ... oh ... your hands bleed" Neva shouted with anxiety that can not be concealed. Immediately he took my index finger on his lips and untouched lipstick. The scene in front of me made me not able to say a word. So beautiful, so wanted to and framed forever. Hair and face are wet because the rain made her lips slightly blue. Jeans with torn knee plus soaking his white shirt and make the curve of her chest became very clear. Black color of her bra accentuated the this beautiful painting. By slowly and gently and blood from my finger. I felt at my fingertips the softness of his tongue touched my wound. Tender which had been so strong bite my fingertips slowly turned into the warmth spread over the entire tip. Still I feel the happiness that I get a few days ago at my house when we were staying. I miss his touch, I miss ....

"Well ... are?" my finger is removed from his mouth broke my memories. There was a slight sense of disappointment in my feelings. But shyness can push deep. Whether, since the incident in my house, I felt a tremendous closeness in between us. Less frequently discussed Neva Don, although my friends in front of teammate he seems deliberately shot her lover's longing for the end of the eye that occasionally stealing glances at me. Lover? Who? Don? I? I was afraid to answer that question and I never questioned it. I just believe, Neva is also done with his heart.

"Hey .. do not be distracted dong, Mas!" greeting my wife gently but annoyance I felt inside.
"No ... just rain like this a long time ... we'll be stuck here yeahhhh!" while I hugged my wife.
There is great gratitude during pouring rain accompanied by a great wind. Neva pressed her seat as she could not hide the cold hit. Immediately hugged my heart this wonderful gift and I gave him all the warmth of my soul. I felt his arms replies so gently but firmly. With a sense of incredible love kiss her wet hair. He seems to enjoy closed I love it. Unconsciously I continued kissing her ear, she tickled behind his ear with the tip of my tongue, and throat. He then turned and warmly kissed my lips. Tongue-tongue play in the pit of my mouth and his right hand to take my left hand resting on his chest.


Increasingly heavy rain dissolves our courtship. She pulled her mouth from my mouth "Yok ... but do not have to play it?". Numbly head. Neva then moved to the front of me facing me, her wet black bra that seemed vague in her wet t-shirt right in front of me. Thrust her breasts into my mouth, wet t-shirt soon as he gently biting my mouth occasionally to two beautiful hills. With a little squeal because the bite was pulled up black bra seems to have openings in the front. Opening of the opening. Oh dear, two hills standing with the hardened black top (either from cold or desire). Finished second black top turns. I bit my bit soft and tickled. I squeezed her butt squeezed big belonging to the movement that he is so expressive increasingly pushed his chest into my mouth. Both hill grew louder. Suddenly, with a rather rude gesture he pulled his chest from my mouth. Neva immediately squatted, opened pants and issuance manhood, immediately manhood with a charging motion. Little chew the end of my manhood, torso with the tip of her tongue down to the base. sensation of pleasure I felt him speed up the movement to eat ice cream. "Ugh ... ah ...... Nev akhhhhhhhh ... .. ahhhhhhh" I can not say anything. already Neva near the top and base of the stem will hit bottom manhood, suddenly ...
Grung ... grung ... make our cars sound like a man possessed immediately fix our clothes. Breathing, we immediately sat down and talk obscure.

"Mbak .. Mas ...?" pack of good-hearted village elder who had stopped the car open like a deer. With a wry little smile we had to ride the car with my old bike in the back
"Nev .. I'm dizzy!" I whispered. Neva just nodded, his fingers squeezing my fingers.
"Well ... it rains like this makes us easy to catch cold, dizzy.'ll Get home let her children's father ordered son Iyok." Mr. ravine of kindness with a plain answer. I looked at each other and with a smile between amusement and dismay.

"Death is a challenge,
We confirm the death for forget the time,
Death tells us to tell each other right now that we love each other .... ... "

KKNku boarding house is also still the same. Wall of bricks, two bedroom (one for Neva and Santi, while others for Hendra, Made, Sugeng and me. Ah ... my teammates that I'm unaware now ...) is now occupied by his nephew pack kind ravine that. Headman's house only a few hundred yards from the house. Bu ravine with puffy eyes still greeted me with a deep compassion. Introduce Neni, then him. Still I felt the warmth of his attention when used in hand
"So ... mbok Iyok mas motor just replaced. Neva's sorry can not watch the same Salatiga yeahh Santi and others. They had been waiting a long time ... mas lo Made the dead. Angry lo he" and occasionally neck. keep smiling I do not want this I just kept quiet. If might not until dawn that still leaves a ravine beauty of this youth could not stop the conversation. And I was so anxious to get back into the Neva following but pretends goodbye completed preparations teaching at the village school. ordeal was finally over, while pretending Procold sleepy because I rushed to the "Nen this .. my room, and that was Jane's room and the Neva" when I call her name was tied to mnyekat in my throat. Fortunately nephew pack ravine immediately told us to drink hot tea.
"Nev ... want some hot tea?" I get you a cup of tea from the village elder's house, lest ill Neva? There are infiltrated with anxiety as I entered her room and saw him crouched motionless.
"Mau dong" as she woke up from sleep chicken. Thankfully, he's okay. Shortly after tea he spends up ...
"Yok!" whispered
"Yes?"
" yuk?". Ah .. how much I want to be able to express his desire Neni like him.
Immediately lock the front door. And with half ran back to the room I Neva. As soon as I opened the room, Neva had been off all shorts and T-shirt. Only a black bra and black pants (I do not know why he was so crazy about the color black, almost all black underwear). By reflex I opened my shirt he soon. Neva little struggling and it made me even more excited. Do not know, it feels like we in a hurry, perhaps out of fear getting caught. Neva quickly stripped it and immediately asked me to put my manhood in her female holes. Somehow, I just looked down and I kiss her gently. The smell was so typical female, I've never sniffed.

With reflex edges and small objects that were flushed tense. Neva with some great hand grabbed my hair and buried my head deeper into the hole. I was so enjoying this game. I swear I've never seen a picture or a movie like this. Everything to do with a mere reflex instincts. Tongue-tongue the more wild dancing in the hole and put more in and in. My hands holding onto the beautiful hills that grew louder and louder. Two peaks black, I play until I felt water on her feminine harder. water, mixed with water. again. Both black top of the hill harder beautiful, wild with two hills, I squeezed, squeezed, and ...
"aaaahhhhh ... oh yes ... yes. uh ...... ahhhh .." pelvic Neva very wild pumping motion. "Oooohhhhh ... Yesssss !!!!" deeper buried my head into it. Yes .. God .. so happy I saw him so content. Immediately pull out my tongue and the tip of my tongue whole body. Neva increasingly, finished second beautiful hill with a peak so hard. Ah ... I could not hold it much longer and ...
Blesss! I put my manhood into her femininity. Held both my buttocks and pulled into the hole deeper. While second beautiful hill, and hold my manhood with my love mempa extraordinary.
"Yok yok ... come on ... ... ah ... hold ... on .. oh yesssss!" lava then my manhood on top of him. Soon dioles-smeared across her body. Oh how beautiful and sexy she was ...
When Jane and my friends home, Neva was asleep exhausted. And I pretended to watch TV in the home pack ravine. When my friends told me how great the movie yg watch. I just pretended upset with untold happiness.
"Mas .. back yok ya .. afternoon ..."

Evening wind brought me back to Solo, still rang clear whisper Neva after our games end.

"I was a storm and the ocean,
darkest forests and rugged mountains and wild .....
how badly always longing
in this place "
CCN month has finished. And during that time I did not meet the Neva. This longing was ripped in my veins the blood vessels and accumulate into the brain gland. Bambang and Panca, friends with me to wonder who suddenly become irritable and sensitive. Finally I tell them that I fell in love with the woman. When I showed his picture, so shocked was Panca Neva friends university basketball team. "Well ... you clever choice, Yok!
I know it must have been speeding Neva thesis. He never said he should be finished within 2 months. Absolutely insane brain child. I'm so ashamed to myself. Compared to him I have not done anything in my life for myself. Panca so surprised by the change so suddenly. I do so more often s proposals that have so long . So often the central library (hm. Neva .. who knows there). I have tried several times to a very large house in north Yogyakarta's. But Don's car that often hanging out in front of the house makes me kecul own. You are a coward Yok! Dunno. Until one day I went to the library and the woman who sat diligently in the corner to make my face pale. Neva? He sat down, glaring at the book of his trial Frans Kafka (must make reference thesis.)
Reading glasses to make her face became so interesting. The figure is remarkable intelligence combined with a voodoo womanhood.
I approached him and I spoke.
"Hey!"
"Hey!" he replied dryly.
"What?
"Swim!" he said casually. I should have known, I can not bother him when it was a book in his hand. Let there bomb he would not budge. I just stopped looking at him, hoping he would look at me, but my hopes were in vain. He did not budge at all. Until a male figure coming toward us, Don!
"Hey .. Yok? Long?" he said warmly I just nodded with a smile that must be so strange. Neva immediately rose. "Let Don go home ... go home once Yok ya!" without waiting for an answer he wandered away. and I'm just numb.

Kriiing! Alarm clock to wake sleeping my chicken lunch. With lightning speed incredible I took a shower and immediately rushed to his backpack, Damn, why can pack Sutoyo faculty mentors make an appointment at 4 pm gini. We cleared the report-report Bambang banged on my door. "Yok ... I go first, probably next month's return," New gosh I remember this afternoon he's going to want to apply fiance Sulawesi.
"Yes ... be careful ... greetings for Trisha!".
Not long later began pounding on my door again. Why else anyway? "What Mbang? There are missing?"
"Yok Ngg ... somebody got company!"
Why is the child, there are guest. Immediately I opened my door. As if there was a big lump in my throat isolate stone and I could hardly breathe it was made. Neva! The woman was standing with his usual costume, t-shirt and faded jeans. But the shoulder is a fairly large backpack. Want to?
"hey ... be staying here?" he asked nonchalantly and without waiting for an answer he went into the room. Ah child was full of surprises. Like a dazed I did not even introduce Bambang, who hurried away.
"Mama Papa catch up to New York. Don went to Kalimantan. There is research on Kalcoal. Males at home. Quiet!" as if they know my astonishment he lay down on the bed just lying on the floor. Only child pairs leading surgeons in this city's most feared himself in his house a super big.
"Until when?" I asked simply.
"You know, maybe a month. Mom and Dad's five weeks. Because they want to go to Europe as well. Jon, the brother of my mother in Paris. You reply would go, go I'm sleepy!" He then turned around. If you do not remember my professor was very hard to find, must cancel my trip.

Throughout the meeting with Mr. Sutoyo, not a second concentration to the proposal that I made. Unfortunately even my professor was just a long lecture about my theory is wrong. When the session was finished, the new I had three hours left in the house Neva. Like a man possessed I spurred my old bike to a house in the area while not forgetting to Mbesi took stalls for 2 large bottles of Coke and ice (Neva's favorite drink). Hm .. why my house was dark? Surely the Neva overslept. I opened the bolt, I was surprised a few candles lit my living room die? I heard faint tape Michael Frank of the room. Then in a quiet fear disrupt her sleep I opened my bedroom. And the scene in my room makes my eyes almost out of place because. A few floating candles in pottery filled with frangipani appear adorned some corners of the room. has changed into a plain dark blue and studded jasmine and exotic smell of incense made my room so cozy. Is this the honeymoon suite room? Neva with strappy knee-length skirts and overalls sersiluet A smile to greet me. Cloth skirt was so thin and light, white color reminds me of the tourists who often wear it in Malioboro. The second looks full chest and two prominent black peak hit me that she was not wearing her favorite black bra. Frangipani sprig tucked in his ears. Ah ... bule-bule deserve it like the women of this country. There is a strong character with a fierce shine. When the song "Lady wants to Know" was playing, Neva hold my hand.
"Shall we dance?". I put all my load like that and to wonder what my feelings are still covered hand, hug him with a longing that never ended. The scent of perfume Yves Saint Laurent more t arms. Every now and then kissed the hand very close. continues to embrace a song ended. As the second song began, suddenly looked up the woman who had been resting on my chest.
"Make love to me?
Fuck me with your soul ...
Take me into your blood
Let me continue to be a ghost who is always occupied one corner of the living heart ... "she whispered softly.
The words were like magic that blinded the whole joint consciousness. My hand down and gently touched his chest gently. Full lips lovingly kissed and immediately and I continued to crawl into his neck with warm kisses. Small bites on his chest sometimes make it stung. Cloth soaked in his chest immediately by kissing the top of his black and standing behind a faint white color. With a full resignation, she carried her to bed. I opened my shirt slowly and in seconds we existed in the ancient innocence. "Please ... explore me moaned as her feminine lips. For some reason I was so creative at that time. Immediately I took my belt and tied her hands and she shut my eyes while with batik scarf my mother who always brought. Oh God (is it appropriate to call me?) How exciting scene in my arms. I took chunks of ice cubes in plastic and I slam into the floor.!

"What's that noise?" she exclaimed in surprise. It does not answer the question with an answer but with a wild and warm kiss on her lips. My hand holding a lump of ice cubes and entire body with the ice like a tongue movements in sensitive places. "Arrgh .. ah ... ugh .. ugh!" he with great because of the sensation. When ice on top of a very stiff black hardened him groan "suction Uuuh ... ... please!" he moaned. Then into two peaks with a small bite bite. the wild. Then the ice was above feminine. Without be dammed again she moaned with great moans I'd never heard (ah maybe that time is not as free as the place). "Arrgh .. uh .. yessss ... oh ... oh ... oh .. great ... baby ..." when the ice is getting smaller yg put into play as a female and my tongue she moaned and begged
"Please Yok ... Fuck me .. come on .... ah ...." but I did not do it, I immediately crushed it with my tongue her femininity. Because his hands were tied she could not hold my head buried into her feminine and he uses his legs to pinch myself. Moaning harder when fluid in the female kuhisap, kujulurkan my tongue deeper into ... and in the ...

"Aaaaaaaaargh! ... Argh .... yesssssssssssssssss oh!" Kuhisap, kulumat with uncontrolled wildness. To hell with the hearing when I heard the door open. It must be Panca. True, perhaps because of hesitation, he immediately went into her room. She groans, getting harder as deep hole in my manhood to her femininity.
"Oh yesssssssss! ... Arghhhhhh!" he can not wriggle free, only that he lifted his hip high to be immersed deeper and deeper. When I opened my eyes and she immediately pushed the rope until I and revocation. She then squatted over my face upside down. Then with wild manhood deeply, at the same time can play my tongue.
"Ahh .. uh ... ah ..." so delicious extraordinary, growing wild in my manhood and occasionally small bites base. The second hill that hangs beautifully and soon I squeezed hard
"Ow ...." Cried the little time I twisted the stigma too hard. Neva more intense shaking my manhood chewed on her femininity to my tongue could go deeper. Then with the same time we reach a deafening groan sensation.
"... Oh YESSSSSSSSS Aaargh!" lava is so fast out of my manhood, immediately liquid. Oh wonderful wonderful ... God .. I love her so much. And that night we continued to make love until the morning before.

It was almost 2 weeks Neva stay with me. During the same moans and groans-Mooo Mooo-seuatu we have become a regular in Every day we make love, sometimes morning, noon and every night. Almost the whole point of this house has had a chance to 'bed' we (of course when Panca left). Panca was used to hearing the shouts of satisfaction from my room, sometimes we even kissed in front of him casually. Panca just grunted, "Huh ... so goat" Then just laughed at the expression my friend. Then with one look we get into the room. Neva usually had time to tease the Panca with mischief.
"Hey ... do not want Pan?"
"Huh hah mad!" my friend was so understanding while still grumble he entered the room as he continued his grumbling:
"!" then moan-groan again reveals among our sweat-sweat. Day- passed so beautiful. Until one afternoon, when I came home from college I was so shocked to see him packing.
"Where are you going ...?" Nev
"Home," the short answer.
"Mama Papa've back?" he just shook his head.
"Tomorrow Don's home!"
Pyaaaar! Suddenly, my head spinning. There's anger suddenly. No, I'm not mad at him, I was just angry with this situation.
"Stay with me," I pleaded. I felt despair in it. She shook her head.
"No. Don would be upset if the house I was not there". Don, again Don!
Why the name is not lost from the heart. Not satisfied him with my love? Despair eventually accumulated with anger. I pulled her into my arms, I held her tightly. And he twitched with a puzzled look. Suddenly I hear my voice rising.
"No, you must stay!" saw the woman still shaking I was getting out of control. In my head just one, he must be mine, forever! And I regret my words out so far:
"So, I assume I . Should you pay me expensive, Nev!"
Plaak! A slap landed on my cheek. I see tremendous anger in his eyes. His body trembled violently. I increasingly, and quickly flip h him with my body. He struggled and increasingly angry. Immediately I opened my pants and shorts as well panties. Then roughly the love of women with malignant. Neva screamed in pain because his body naturally refused. But I do not care and deliberately put it in the lava-manhood (so far I have never entered into except with rubber safety). I want her to get pregnant. Is that the only way to have it.

"Oh .. no ..." Cries the more made up my mind. After all finished, I realized there Beads of water flowing from both eyes beautiful. Yes ... Lord What have I done to woman I loved very much in my life? Without saying he immediately i carrying his body and belongings she left without looking at least to me. That afternoon in the rain which fell all of a sudden, the last time I saw it. I was so sick ....

I tried dozens of times to see him to his house, but only the maid who came out and said away or a thousand other reasons. Nev ... I just apologize. On the day he was not come. I'm getting lost in my guilt. Until one day the sound of knocking. Nevakah? Once I opened it Don. I have not had time to ask a punch landed on my face. Don just said quietly, tossing a letter, "Idiot! You almost have it, but you are destroying themselves".
Holding back pain I read the letter. Letter Neva!

"Don, my dear ...
Forgive me. When you read this letter I was in Paris, happened to Jon I lived there. So I took all the film school as well. Sorry I could not tell you about this decision. Don, once you are the only man who wanted to give my whole life. I became very hurt when you do not want children from me. Although you eventually want to marry me .... But it turned out to be different when I met Iyok (Ah how nice if there was one person between you and the combined Iyok). I also want to live with him. And it's not fair right? I felt betrayed at the time with him and betrayed him with you. When you go to Borneo I thought it was a good time to examine my feelings to you and him. Living with him was so relaxed I really enjoyed it. Almost all decided to live with him. But it was his love that. I also can not live that way.
Don, I hope you understand with this choice. I love you forever I love you. If you could meet Iyok, please tell me that I'm only sorry he could not feel my feelings to him ... just take care of yourself. Neva. "

I'm just numb. Therefore, every year I would have bothered to go into the woods with a thousand rubber is one reason to my wife ....

Note: Five years ago, Panca've seen in Changi airport. Neva with a daughter about five years old. They alone while waiting for the plane to Paris. I was so shaky hear. I do not dare think about all the possibilities ...

END